Happy Birthday Chris!
I’ve been wanting to do a masterpost of my fic for a while, and finally got around to doing it. Blog page for it is here, will be updated as I continue to write things.
Personal favorites have been bolded. Not ordered by anything in particular, though sorted by ship.
Pairings included are Thor/Loki, Tom Hiddleston/Chris Hemsworth, Loki/Jane, Bucky/Steve, and Arthur/Eames.
Canon compliant, pre-canon, or slight canon divergence:
✏ The Golden Floor; Explicit, Oneshot. Torture, post-Thor 2011, Loki’s POV.
They broke him in the pit. A hole of musk and insects and creatures too small and too dangerous for the light of day. They broke him there. It took three days. He was mindless by the fourth.
✏ Waking; Teen and up, Oneshot. Dreams, implied relationship.
Thor dreams of Loki.
✏ The Thickness of Blood; Teen and up, Oneshot. Pre-Thor 2011, young Thor and Loki, blood rite.
"I mean to make us brothers. True brothers."
✏ Lachrimae; Explicit, Oneshot. Character death, descriptions of gore and violence, war themes, dark thoughts, drunkenness, time lapse, Loki’s POV.
"Loki, please, let this go. Let it end. Be with me, please, everyone is gone. Nothing is left to fight against, please. Loki, brother, please." Repetition shuddered on quiet sobs, the thunder in them having petered out long ago.
✏ Agony; Mature, Oneshot. Talk of dreams and death, descriptions of mild violence.
Yes, Loki liked poetry. He liked to speak words that did not rhyme.
✏ Waiting for Dark; Mature, Oneshot. Angst, more hurt than comfort.
“Would you be terribly upset. If I died,” Loki asked him that night, the words passing as a shadow on the knuckles he cradled against his lips.
✏ Ill; Mature, Oneshot. Dark thoughts, visions, loss of sanity, Loki’s POV.
Loki is as Loki is. Ill and all too aware.
✏ Plagued; Explicit, Oneshot. Implied dubcon, time lapse, rough sex, angst, implied enslavement ala Blood Brothers.
Evil, as so many would deem it, is resolute, absolute. He misses chaos. Loki misses Thor.
✏ Will of a King; Mature, Oneshot. Forced marriage, flirtations, emotional manipulation, jealousy.
Loki is forced to choose a wife as punishment upon his return to Asgard. Thor is less than pleased.
✏ Bloom; Explicit, 10 chapters, 21k. Post-The Dark World, slow burn, massage, first time, dreams, hurt/comfort, developing relationship, time lapse.
Loki is dead and Thor can finally grieve. But Loki is a liar and Thor should have known just what it required to be able to raise Mjolnir once more.
✏ The Sound of Forgetting (Part 1 of Old Silences); Explicit, Oneshot. Family drama, angst, hurt/comfort, dubcon, shame.
Thor always found him. They were brothers. It was a bond that could never be broken. No matter how much Loki tried.
✏ People Lie All the Time (Part 1 of Old Silences); Explicit, Oneshot. Family drama, angst, hurt/comfort, war themes.
Thor only sat in Odin’s throne, blank, and unseeing, Gungnir heavy in his hand, Mjolnir at his feet. Loki stood, and watched him.
✏ Voyeur; Explicit, Oneshot. Masturbation, voyeurism, denial, indulgence.
Gold could be forged. Into cities, into prisons. To Thor, the gold of Asgard made a home. But to Loki, who sat in tatters endless miles beneath this home, Asgard was a prison. A twisting, beautiful, vile prison.
✏ Promise; Explicit, Oneshot. Hair pulling, begging, top Loki, rough sex, implied dubcon.
He can feel Loki nudge the back of his thigh, where he leans over him. His grip is almost suffocating but he does not relent because he knows Thor can take it.
✏ Hunting; Teen and up, Oneshot. Pre-Thor 2011, mild descriptions of injuries, hurt/comfort.
Finally, Thor says, “If I did not know you for my brother, I would think you were complimenting me.”
✏ Marked; Teen and up, Oneshot. Name carving, anxiousness.
Loki breathes against his neck and it’s nearly cold. “You will remember this, won’t you?”
✏ Saved; Teen and up, Oneshot. Mild violence, protective Thor.
Prompt- Some Asgardians give Loki a hard time. Protective Thor comes bursting in to save the day. Somehow, Loki ends up saving his ass instead.
✏ Experiment; Explicit, Oneshot. Potions, pollen kink of a sort, Loki’s POV, sick Thor.
Curious about the effects of his little trick, Loki leans forward, ignoring the way Thor’s hand rests over the curve of his neck. Thor turns his head enough so Loki can see him. He notices Thor’s forehead has a sheen to it, his eyes are slightly red, his lips dry.
✏ Trapped; Explicit, Oneshot. Pollen kink of a sort, cuddling for warmth, Mjolnir and seidr rendered useless, hurt/comfort.
Someone thought it funny to lock Thor and Loki together in a cabin.
✏ Strikhedonia; Teen and up, Oneshot. Implied underage. Pre-God of Thunder: The God Butcher canon references.
Thor’s just turned seventeen and Loki isn’t far behind. They’re staring down a chasm filled with boiling dark and deafened things.
✏ Petrichor; Teen and up, Oneshot.
Thor always makes it rain. When he’s sad. When he’s nervous. When he’s afraid.
✏ Indulgence; Teen and up, Oneshot. Body worship, admiring, Loki’s POV.
Thor is beautiful. Loki forgets that sometimes.
✏ Hit Me Like I Hit You; Explicit, Oneshot. Masochism, light bondage, whipping, secret meetings.
Now, everything was Loki, Loki, Loki. Everything from the bloom of light bruises across her body, to the ripple of still-bleeding slashes across his back.
✏ Prayers; Teen and up, Oneshot. Hurt/comfort, post-Thor 2011.
Loki did not often receive prayers from mortals, but when he did, he always felt intrigued to visit them. When it is Jane Foster’s voice he hears, he is moved to answer her.
✏ Curiosity; Teen and up, 3 chapters. Veiled presence, observation, pining.
Loki is curious when the cube reacts to Jane’s presence more than his own.
✏ Elevators; Teen and up, Oneshot. Fluff.
Loki and Jane are stuck in an elevator. He finds it’s the perfect time to play around with Thor’s beloved.
Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes:
✏ Like This; Gen, Oneshot. Implied relationship, post-The First Avenger, Steve’s POV.
About the after. After he woke up. After Bucky had died. He had no one now.
✏ Twenty Hours; Teen and up, Oneshot. Eames’ POV.
“He has to want to wake up,” he tells her finally.
✏ Disconnect; Explicit, Oneshot. Dark Arthur, descriptions of mild gore and weapon violence.
Arthur’s thoughts are a cycle and Eames knows not to break them, merely intersperse them with himself.
✏ Simple; Teen and up/Explicit, WIP. Thor filming compliant, hotel shenanigans, alcohol use and drunkenness, denial.
Tom is drunk and Chris helps him to his room.
AU (human, creatures (ie vampire/werewolf, etc), crossover, canon-reversal, Jotun things, etc):
Jotunheim won and Laufey did what any other warlord would do; he took the heart of Asgard. Thor is raised by Loki’s side and helps Loki overthrow his father. But Loki wants so much more than just Jotunheim.
✏ Let Me Live That Fantasy (Part 2 of Royals series); Explicit, WIP. Jotun Loki, intersex Loki, Thor coming into his own as well as Loki, earning Mjolnir fic, hurt/comfort, angst, sad Thor, Thor getting to know Asgard.
Asgard has its King and Jotunheim still has many secrets left untold.
✏ Viral; Explicit, Oneshot. Human AU, nuclear fallout, infection (NOT zombies), depression, violence, implied cannibalism, survival fic, hope in desolate setting, Virologist Loki, Thor’s POV.
Loki showed up three hours later—just as the sky started to fade and flashed once, twice—Loki was shoving water jugs and packages of surgical masks in Thor’s arms, people outside were screaming on their lawns—three times. Then it went dark.
✏ Theophany; Mature, Oneshot. Thor’s POV, past character death, implied suicide.
Parents tell their children things will work out in the end, that things will be alright. Sometimes they don’t and they aren’t.
✏ Illness; Explicit, Oneshot. Human AU, cancer, chemo therapy, comfort fic, Thor taking care of terminally ill Loki.
Loki is sick and Thor is there for him.
✏ Absolution; Explicit, 12 chapters, 35k. Human AU, ex-cop Thor, fugitive Loki, mob/international drug cartel AU, descriptions of imprisonment, hostage holding, alcohol and drug use, Stockholm syndrome, gun violence.
Thor is a disgraced police officer after having saved Loki, son of drug lord Laufey, from being killed by his own people.
✏ Fall a Little Harder; Explicit, 11 chapters, 30k. Human hipster AU, Café owner Loki, alcoholic Thor, heavy alcohol and drug use, mob AU, descriptions of violence, descriptions of seizures.
One day Thor stumbles drunk into Loki’s cafe. He finds it’s harder to stumble back out.
✏ Broken Things; Explicit, WIP, 40k+. Norse mythology mixed slightly with Marvel canon. Based in Viking Age, descriptions of gore and violence, visions, will involve character death and major mythological events.
He hummed thinly, knowing then. “Tell me, oldest comrade, would I, a Jotun bastard who has a penchant for the uncanny, and your golden son, your savior, been laid bare for the court?”
“Your bones would have littered my hall to the gates of Asgard, and it would have thundered and poured as Thor watched, collecting them.”
✏ Titles; Mature, Oneshot. Skyrim AU, Thalmor Loki, Talos Thor, descriptions of violence, gods being gods, references to other deities.
The god stared at him, devoid of any amusement. “Your kind do not speak of good deaths. You follow orders and do as you must. You live up to your titles.” Loki swallowed. “I never liked my title.”
✏ Falling; Mature, Oneshot. Human AU, astronaut Loki, engineer Thor, Thor’s POV.
He thinks each time Loki forgets that his home is here, with Thor, and not left behind to the far reaching stretch of space, the flickering light of pulsing stars.
✏ Neon; Explicit, Oneshot. Human hipster AU, drinking, implied drug use, Thor’s POV.
He’s drunk, or high, or some combination of the two as he dances alone, bracing his arms against the back wall. Like he’s praying to some strange, walled god. Obscure and diminished, bracketed by concrete and old wire, and only for him.
✏ Blind; Explicit, Oneshot. Human AU, college AU, blindfolds, sex games, truth or dare, mention of hazing, mild drinking, denial, hurt/comfort, Fandral is consent police.
Thor’s in a frat and Loki’s not. It’s close to finals and a year to graduation and Loki finally accepts one of Thor’s badgering attempts at getting him to attend one of Thor’s parties. But Thor back peddles when he realizes Loki is more interested in some of the darker aspects these parties can offer.
✏ Lamplight; Explicit, Oneshot. Businessman Loki, prostitute Thor, mild drinking, denial, Loki’s POV.
“Just let me make you feel good. That’s all that needs to happen here. Then I’m gone.”
✏ Snow; Mature, Oneshot. Human AU, vacation gone wrong, avalanche, survival fic, Loki’s POV, warning for claustrophobia.
“What if it was bad? What if you couldn’t get out?”
✏ Primavera; Teen and up, Oneshot. Human AU, stock market collapse, Thor’s POV.
Thor is a banker and small time trader. Loki sits on his bench and Thor finds he can’t stop looking for him. Then the market crashes and everything changes.
✏ Brontide; Explicit, Oneshot. Human AU.
It’s raining and through his kitchen window he can see the flash of lightning. Thunder shakes the sky apart and it has Loki grinding harder against him. Thor loves it. Thor wants more of it.
✏ First Kiss; Explicit, Oneshot. Human AU, travel fic, fluff and angst.
He’s becoming weak, he’s slipping, and his dreams are filled with simple touches instead of the intensity they so partake of each other in reality.
✏ What War Demands; Explicit, Oneshot. Berserkr Thor, Jotun Loki, intersex Loki, descriptions of gore.
That Thor should love him so much is the most charming sort of lie his brother has learned yet and Loki wishes not to see how far Thor would reap his winnings. For Loki knows just what the result of a lie can cause, and he knows how it is to glory in the ruin of another.
✏ First Meeting; Mature, Oneshot. Human AU, flirting, shameless public grinding.
The stranger shifted back against him, his shoulders rolling, his hips pressing back and oh. Oh.
✏ A Walk; Teen and up, Oneshot. Avatar AU, Na’vi Loki, ex-Marine Thor, descriptions of hunting.
“If you are a warrior once, then you are always a warrior.” Loki reached forth purple stained fingers, blood, and touched his chest. “You cannot rid yourself of that.”
✏ Change; Mature, Oneshot. Werewolf Thor, Vampire Loki.
The other’s words filter through the battle haze of his frenzied mind and he hears him, well and truly. “I could pull your ribs out, one after another. Like you are.”
✏ Pillars; Mature, Oneshot. Egyptian AU, prince Thor, slave Loki.
“Forgive me, Thor. Master.”
“You know I hate when you call me that,” Thor says, very quiet.
✏ Engagement; Mature, Oneshot. Jotun Loki, arranged marriage, flirting.
Thor wants everything of Loki, and he fears it is not the same for him.
✏ Storm Uncalled For; Mature, Oneshot. Jotun Loki, intersex Loki, Mpreg, comfort fic.
Thor kisses him, and it’s so much better than his rage, his temper, his hatred, and Loki feels it break apart inside him and he sobs.
✏ Balance Enough; Explicit, Oneshot. Hurt/comfort, intersex Loki.
They’re naked in bed when Frigga finds them.
✏ The Seventh Day; Teen and up, Oneshot. Human AU, car accident, injured character, Loki’s POV.
Loki sits there and waits, knowing if he closes his eyes the truth he knows will be made too real.
✏ Late Night In; Explicit, Oneshot. Human AU, hooker Loki, mechanic Thor.
Prompt-Loki is a hooker, Thor is a biker.
✏ Wolf Heart; Mature, WIP. Human AU, Mob AU
The funeral was closed casket. The last time Jane saw Thor alive, he had spoken of Russia. Loki showed up at her door a month later, telling her Thor was still alive.
✏ Stars; Mature, Oneshot. Underage, lumberjack/trucker!Chris, hitchhiker!Tom, implied prostitution, fluff and angst.
Chris hauls lumber across states and Tom is a kid with too much cash by the side of the road who needs to get to California. Tom is just a kid and Chris, well. Chris knows better.
Poems that make men cry - Sunday Times Magazine - Mar 30, 2014
Tom Hiddleston | Love After Love, by Derek Walcott
I read this poem often, once a month at least. In the madness and mayhem of modern life, where every man seems committed to an endless search for the approval and esteem of his fellows and peers, no matter what the cost, this poem reminds me of a basic truth: that we are, as we are, “enough”. Most of us are motivated deep down by a sense of insufficiency, a need to be better, stronger, faster; to work harder; to be more committed, more kind, more self-sufficient, more successful. But this short poem by Derek Walcott is like a declaration of unconditional love. It’s like the embrace of an old friend. He brings us to an awareness of the present moment, calm and peaceful, and to a feeling of gratitude for everything we have. I read it to my dearest friends after dinner once, and to my family at Christmas, and they started crying, which always, unfailingly, makes me cry.